Can't sleep again...

So, it's 4am, my baby (the lil one) is with her dad, and once again, I can't sleep. I do have quite a bit on my mind, but you'd think that the pregnancy and a full day of running around would do it. Sheesh...

My big girl and I went down to a flea market yesterday morning at 6am to try and get some cash for junk...lol...we had an ok morning. We only made about $60, but it was enough to spend the day together, laugh at folks (cause ain't nuthin like flea market shoppers), get some ice cream...and zone out!! I realize that my baby (the big one) is super super sensitive, and very much like her mother at this age. She was saying 'good morning' to everyone that stopped by our table or glanced over at her. She was majorly offended when some didn't respond. To the point that she actually shed a tear or two at how rude and nasty some people are. My sweet baby. You know momma bear was ready to fight everyone, right? LOL...we talked about it, and I explained to her that her good morning should be about her and how she feels. Some people are just miserable and that's that. Some people are not used to people being nice, or speaking to them for that matter. There's nothing you can do about it. F em!!! Keep your happy face on and say good morning. If they respond, great, if they don't, silently laugh to yourself at their outfit. LOL!

So...that's my thought for the day...be nice to someone, but if they're not nice back, laugh at their outfit!

xoxo

Judging books by their covers...

Ok, so I had to work for a few hours today, did an open house in my area. I got two leads that I'm hoping will pay off. That was the good part of my day. I won't mention that I was staaarving during my lowly 3 hour stay between 1 and 4. LOL...I haven't really been hungry so far during this pregnancy, but I guess it's starting. I brought an apple, a banana, and an orange with me. Ate all of them, and felt like I had eaten NOTHING...lol...

So, on the way to drop some things off at the real estate office, I ran into the local fish market...yes, and ordered some horrible fried scallops, shrimp, whiting, and fries...bad mommy...but it was soooo good. So, on the way out, a black woman about my age was coming in. I looked at her, hard angry face...head scarf on...sweatpants...etc, you get the idea, right? So I moved to the side so she could 'baby phat stomp' in (that's what my girlfriend and I call nasty stank walks...have you ever seen Kimora's models walk the runway??? For couture, it's cool, for the streets, not so much). Much to my chagrin, she held the door for me. WTF..."...Oh...thank you...," I squeaked out, in sheer shock. "You're welcome" she replied. Wow. See that? Just because a person looks like they are having the day from hell doesn't mean that they will act like they are.

I usually make it a point not to judge people with a glance, because I HATE when people do it to me. I felt like poop on a stick for doing that to that lady. I'm putting it out into the stratosphere with hopes that she didn't even realize my judgemental gaze. I'm sorry miss lady :(

Now, you know, this works both ways. I used to be one of those flip-lip young chicks. Very quick to spew a quirky remark to someone who I felt gave me a nasty look, or stepped on my shoe. I didn't start mess, but I definitely verbally finished it. You just can't do that though. I try to teach my kids that too. You never know the kind of day a person is having. You don't know if they just lost someone close to them, their job, their reason for living. And you don't know if a kind word will keep someone from taking themselves out...or you for that matter. You just never know.

So today...or maybe tomorrow since it's late afternoon, make it your business NOT to judge that person with the ratty clothes, or the matted hair, who may or may not be talking to themselves. Just make way, and let them go about their business.

Say hello or give a smile to that person who's looking a bit haggard, your face could be the one that makes them feel like life just may be worth living. A small word to the wise though...don't make eye contact with the ones that you are convinced are crazy (a lil hypocritical right? I know, sorry, but it's true...you won't be able to get rid of them).

xoxo

Random thoughts

So, I felt the baby poke me for the first time on Saturday. I can't call it a kick, cause s/he's not big enough for it to feel like a kick, just a mild poke...but it was beautiful. It lets you know that something wonderful is really happening in there!! My nausea, headaches, tiredness, and dizziness have finally calmed down. I was so not used to that. With my two girls, I had NONE of it. I guess someone know that this is the last hoorah and wants me to feel every aspect of being pregnant...lol. It's cool though, I wouldn't change it. It's only temporary, right??

I still haven't done a YT video...I'm feeling really sorry about that. I can't decide what to do, and when I do think of something, the feeling floats right on past me. I feel so guilty. I know that my subbies deserve more, and I am going to get it to them...I promise...pinky promise myself. I was planning on doing some yard-work with my oldest daughter while the little one visits her nanna on Saturday, but I hear it's going to rain. That should give me time to knock out some videos...

I'm still working full-time, and part-time with real estate. I need to hurry up and stack some cash before the new one pops his/her lil head out. I have time saved up for vacation with work, plus my maternity leave...it just always seems like it's never enough...we shall see though.

Whoa it's been forever...

So, yes, it's been like 3 months since I've chatted, but trust me, quite a bit has been going on. The first and most important this is....ready???? I'm PREGNANT!!! I'm so excited! I'm exactly four months today...and sooooo hoping for a boy. This pregnancy has been totally different than my two girls...I have been so sick, ALL THE TIME!!! I never got sick with my girls. I hope that this is a clue.

I've had some relationship drama a well, and am just reevaluating everything. I am working on getting back to me. It's hard when you start your family early in life to keep focus on who you are and what you want...but now is the time for me to focus. I have settled in my life with so many things. Now is really the time for me to focus on the things that I want to focus on...writing, make-up, and voice overs.

I've been taking some classes in NY and am headed to another today. I promise to get back to blogging and to doing videos...these are things that make me happy and take my mind off of the not so good things that are going on...so look for me soon.

I've had couple of requests for hair videos...and someone suggested I do a pregnancy chronicle...so I may do that as well, we shall see...

Sky's the limit, right???? Let me know if there's anything that you would like to see or if you have any hair or makeup questions...or question on anything...